Jottings
Published by Aakarsh under Personal Notes on Thursday, November 24, 2005
How does one traverse the fissure between the thoughts and the routine..or so to say...between what you long forand what you really do?The JAM which you feel in life, after which there comes a phase of stagnation...how can you grow beyond it?
many a times, i am baffled by/with this thought, because i myself feel severe stagnation to the depths. It is like as if you have stopped growing beyond a stage. You know the next stages, the future stages...you imagine it...you understand it..yet you cannot reach out for it, for you are tied to the mundane routines of daily life, to the extent that the urge to make an attempt dies out atthe end of a tired day.
People say "you grow more...when you read more..and learn more"..Given the obstinate demands and goals we set for ourselves to make a living(supposedly a better one..), how the hell can we take out time to read..and then think..and then even execute what we've learnt. Some others say " you grow more..when you observe people..talk to them"..would i buy that? not completely though. As more and more mechanical-ity sets in...into our lives as such..the perspective of connecting with people becomes discrete rather than being a continuous process.and i think few observations dont make up a learning. There must be many more channels through which we yearn to grow up..Because not all..work right for all.May be each of us set out to seek our own path..with a direction presumably. But how do we know that we are heading right, even if we are trying to?
Like one nice writer once questioned himself, " I gave my life to become the person i am right now. Was it worth it?".
many a times, i am baffled by/with this thought, because i myself feel severe stagnation to the depths. It is like as if you have stopped growing beyond a stage. You know the next stages, the future stages...you imagine it...you understand it..yet you cannot reach out for it, for you are tied to the mundane routines of daily life, to the extent that the urge to make an attempt dies out atthe end of a tired day.
People say "you grow more...when you read more..and learn more"..Given the obstinate demands and goals we set for ourselves to make a living(supposedly a better one..), how the hell can we take out time to read..and then think..and then even execute what we've learnt. Some others say " you grow more..when you observe people..talk to them"..would i buy that? not completely though. As more and more mechanical-ity sets in...into our lives as such..the perspective of connecting with people becomes discrete rather than being a continuous process.and i think few observations dont make up a learning. There must be many more channels through which we yearn to grow up..Because not all..work right for all.May be each of us set out to seek our own path..with a direction presumably. But how do we know that we are heading right, even if we are trying to?
Like one nice writer once questioned himself, " I gave my life to become the person i am right now. Was it worth it?".
6 comments:
Feeling stuck is common. Sometimes being stuck is an subconscious choice!
Often we are growing without realising that it is happening.
Your post is honest and so that is a good sign that you will make progress.
qouting Brock Tully,
"When i go from A to B,
its not so important
that i get to B
or what i getto be
for getting to B,
but that I dont forget
about "being",
while i am going
from A to B..."
Or,
"...I'd rather be 'growing'...
than to be grown
and stop 'being' ".
aaarrrggghh!!
**quoting** sorry!!
thats the philo i wud defnly buy divya..but my point is also about going from A to B. Are we really going?
i empathize
Every time you meet a new person you grow cause you learn something new.So there is growth. Then again the underlined presumption is that you have had an interesting conversation. Which again means you have come across the right kind of person. And in our place there are very few of them. Growth, then becomes so slow that one feels that he is stuck in that stagnation phase. very natural. Again, Time is that factor which we all tend to ignore! rather under estimate!
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